Original Post: Tue, 12/21/2010 – 01:03
I asked the Lord for a sign today and He gave me the sign today. Thank you, God. I now know where I should go to serve the Lord on Christmas Eve this year, to sing God’s praises, to serve God with music on that one Midnight Mass, which comes only once a year. Thank you.
I can only sing in one Midnight Mass during Christmas Eve. I asked the Lord to give me a sign to show me where I should sing this year’s Midnight Mass. Amazing, the answer came shortly after that.
I have been singing in my church since January 1999. Then in 2005, when I lost my father, I was unable to sing. Every time I open my mouth to sing, I would just burst into tears. I know I have to make amends to my broken and saddened heart for losing the best father in the whole wide world. I have to make up with God for taking my father away. I need to go back to church to sing. That was my duty since he has given back my life from a very challenging time. That is another story.
In 2005, I went to a local church where no one knows me and so I can cry and cry every weekend at that church until I can go calmly. So, one day, I went up to the music director and told him what happened and if I can sing with them for a while to heal my heart to sing for the Lord again. He said yes.
Later I was able to go back to my old church where my husband was playing and my friends were singing. It was during Lent. And so the first song was Were You There. Lord, I burst into tears again. But this time, I can control myself better and so I stayed on and back to sing at my old church. But I did not forget the church that helped heal my broken and saddened heart for losing my father.
So, this Christmas 2010, I have to choose which church I would sing the Midnight Mass in. And the Lord had guided me. I was thankful.